Encouraging others



So last night was a tough night.  My anxiety had my pacing most of the night.  I even got on facebook Live just to talk to people to distract me from my feelings.  Eventually, I remember I had Xanax.  I took one and got 3 hours of sleep. I try not to take them because addiction runs in my family.  However, last night it was necessary and I'll take it tonight.

I can barely keep my eyes open as I write this so I better wrap it up:

ONE GOOD THING I DID TODAY:  I sent video messages to people that are important to me. telling them that I love them.  I will continue doing that.

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  1. MargaretApril 24, 2020 at 9:01 PM

    I'm glad you did something good and that you will continue to reach out. You need to take care of yourself however you can and get some sleep!!xoxo

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