Mentally Checking Out

I made carb friendly crab cakes today.  They were good, but not perfect.
I am beginning to mentally check out from school.  And this is a good thing.  This weekend I have had no desire to lesson plan.  No desire to grade (but who really ever has the desire to grade). I haven't checked my school email all day.  I'm glad that I am beginning to think about life outside of school.

I am making progress on getting out.  Today, I called a friend and asked if I could come over.  I brought over my lawn chair and we sat on the porch six feet apart and just talked.  I disagree is 90% of her opinions, but it was nice to talk.  She says we can't run from this disease and that we are destroying the economy when death is only affecting the major cities of LA, Chicago & NY.  I don't watch the news so I had no argument.  I said I'm okay with the government shutting things down if for all our good.  Sometimes, it is not worth arguing with people over things.  She is all about protecting her right to privacy and making own choices and not letting the government do it for her.  All I know is that since the governor announced the reopening our numbers keep climbing.

I made a shopping list.  My hope is to go to the grocery store when it opens in the morning at 7 and see if I can get somethings that were restocked overnight.  It is also my hope that going this early means I avoid people.  The irony is I want nothing more than to be with people right now.

ONE GOOD THING:  I walked 30 minutes without stopping this evening.  I am getting to know my body better and know the feeling when my blood sugars are low.

I am grateful for lawn chairs and friends.  I am grateful that my health is in a better place.  I am grateful for weekends.  I am grateful for the internet.  I am grateful for long phone conversations.  I am grateful for sleep last night and a leisurely morning.  I am grateful for the promise of good sermons tomorrow.

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  1. MargaretMay 3, 2020 at 10:51 AM

    I've had distance chat dates too, and it's very healthy to see a human face. I also believe strongly in exercise as a healthy way to de-stress. Your friend is very, very wrong, but I don't need to tell you that.

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