The Travels & Life of Egypt

Eggplant Rollatini I don't want to die alone. It seems like that may happen.  I'm not married.  Never had children.  I have dated before and most of the time it doesn't go well.  I can only assume that I am the problem. Every man I dated has had issues and of course, I have issues; but I seem to attract men who are broken beyond what I can tolerate.  I'm moving to South Korea in a few months.  Could this be the nail in the coffin?   Today, I've had doubts about Korea.  Could I experience lonliness there because of the social distancing?  I have heard that South Korea can be difficult the unmarried because of the lack of dating.  I thought I would make lots of friends in the expat community, but what will social distancing do to the community I imagined I could have.   Maybe all of this doubting is just COVID 19 induced insecurity and depression. ONE GOOD THING: I cooked eggplant rollatini and it was good! I am grat...

Exercise is saving my life right now.  Literally, my blood sugars are in check and I dropping weight. It is keeping me sane.  Saving my life! I hate email more than anything!  Seriously, hate it!  You know why?  Because ZERO inbox is so so elusive.  Even more, I hate work email.  Why?  Because work emails mean there is just one more thing to do.  I just spent the last 30 minutes working on school email.  Email for me could be a full time job and I hate it and  I can't keep up with it.   It is like grading.  The work is never done, no matter how much time you invest. A friend from another high school in town sent me another email about an opening at her school.  She has been eager to get me to join the staff there for years.  I need to respond to her and tell her that my plan is still to move to Korea. Before I can go to bed tonight, I need to finish a letter of recommendation for a student.  Ano...

A totally weird picture that needs a lot of explaining. I was multitasking:  exercising, in a virtual watch party for musical awards (a school thing) and watching the awards show.  So I had three screens in front of me as I exercised.   However, I snapped the picture at this weird moment of a kid holding up fake boobs in a musical.  AWKWARD! I made chocolate chip cookies.  Cooking keeps my hands busy. I need to go see a doctor.  I feel like I've had this congestion for over two weeks and my chest has pressure from the sinus drainage. I'll try to set something up tomorrow.  I want them to look in my throat and ears and make sure I'm not crazy.  But I suppose, I should wait on the COVID test. School official ends May 22.  I am so grateful for it to be over.  But I wish I knew what was happening at my new school--maybe that is what the chest pressure is all about. Next week, I am supposed to lead a devotion...

The cup of tea I"m sipping on as I watch this blog post. Friday, I was frustrated by the coughing I'd had at night and during class and overall anxiety that I have the COVID 19.  Because the city is now giving tests to anyone with symptoms and I am in the vulnerable category.  I signed up for a test.  Although I had to drive nearly 30 minutes, I took the test.  No results back.  I have to wait 4-6 days for a call with results.    I think it is highly unlikely that I have it because I have not had a lot of interactions with people. And I know that the people I have interacted with have not been as careful as me. I have been taking allergy pills since Spring Break because of congestion that causes coughing, difficulty breathing through my nose and makes my chest tight,  The worst thing about allergy pills is the dryness it causes.  My mouth tasks horrible all the time and I hate it.  My plan tonight was to NOT take an allergy pill. ...

This rocking chair is very comfortable.  However, I can't wait to make my list of items for sale and have people start picking things up.   I'm pretty much ready for bed.  I've brushed my teeth, taken my night meds, put my rubber bands in and then I remembered I had not reflected on the day.    Overall, a good day.  I slept in because I stayed up late watching Zoom Meeting for Expats.  I am trying to learn as much as I can before I go to South Korea.  I watched church online, made breakfast before going out.  I went to the carwash.  It is very much exciting when you're trying to limit the number of people you come in contact with.  The highlight of my day riding through the machine.  After the carwash, I went to my friend R's house.  We sat outside in her back yard.  Me under the tree (I brought a blanket to sit on the ground) and her on the gazebo.  There were more than 6 feet between us and it made...

I made biscuits from scratch today  They were good, but I only ate half of one because of my diet.  The rest will see the trash can tomorrow. I slept most of the night last night.  There were a couple of wakeups but I talked myself back sleep by repeating:  God loves me. He sees me and God hears me.  It is my new affirmation/mantra.  I was so scared of another panic attack.  I think it helped that I had a Xanax before bed.  I really try not to take them, but Thursday night (3 hours of sleep awful) was so awful I had to have one last night.   Today, I Marco Poloed a friend and was telling her about my packing progress.  For whatever reason, it came to a halt with all of this COVID 19 business.  She sent me a TED Talk about procrastination.  Basically, I am stalled because everything is up in the air and there is no looming deadline.  But I am going to Korea.  So this evening I started cleaning off one of ...

So last night was a tough night.  My anxiety had my pacing most of the night.  I even got on facebook Live just to talk to people to distract me from my feelings.  Eventually, I remember I had Xanax.  I took one and got 3 hours of sleep. I try not to take them because addiction runs in my family.  However, last night it was necessary and I'll take it tonight. I can barely keep my eyes open as I write this so I better wrap it up: ONE GOOD THING I DID TODAY:  I sent video messages to people that are important to me. telling them that I love them.  I will continue doing that.